Tuesday, March 13, 2012
posted by De Carelove at 10:24 PM
Monday, March 5, 2012
Life, Love, Leisure, Career, (I may be anything, and I am still me!). It is the norm of rule that people shall always trying to bring you down. This song described, everything, the sum of my life. Begun with suffered of life trying to build a family & built love, then parts of career developed, establishing repo and territory.. and.. at the last phase, revenge stage as the climax. Flashing back from day 1 was quite emotion, and rather words ease than the truth. Well Wan Izaruddin, life's hard, wasn't it? Once lead, don't you ever step back, the past is bad, the future is indulge.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
... and I started to realize that these are all only a dream. The ring- it was meaningless. The promise- it was only a word. The love- it was only a betray. The years- it was only a timeline.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Some people are just too, ungrateful, after the sacrifice made. Moving and loving one to another, just as the would stop at one station after another, I mean, this is extremely horrible, and unacceptable.
Honest, trust and tolerance, are the crucial factors in making a good and as well as incredible relationship. Money and lust are, too, are important but not by seeking from others, especially after the promises and commitment given.
Honest, trust and tolerance, are the crucial factors in making a good and as well as incredible relationship. Money and lust are, too, are important but not by seeking from others, especially after the promises and commitment given.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Oh, I'm in love. With him, him, and him(!). An ISP T.A., a Doc, and a... nobody.
I love you. I wrote this though through my fingers and into his, up his arm and into his heart. Hear me. I love you. And I'm sorry to leave you. I love you, still, Doc(!).
Thursday, January 26, 2012
How come dumb stuff seems so smart while I was doing it. I cannot always wait for the perfect time, I must dare to jump. The times in life, that seems to be the best, always turn out for the worst!
Shake off the "why's" and the "what if's" and rid yourself of confusion. Whatever was - is in the past. Whatever is? That’s what's important. The past is a brief reflection, and the future is yet to be realized.
Shake off the "why's" and the "what if's" and rid yourself of confusion. Whatever was - is in the past. Whatever is? That’s what's important. The past is a brief reflection, and the future is yet to be realized.
Whatever that has been taken is taken away. No regret, all left is only the prolong effect of suffering. For how long it's going to be - that is an uncertainty.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Stop complaining 'bout yr broken heart! Had U evr think wat was other felt the moment U took him away frm me? This is so call as karma. U deserve as wat U'd b4!. U smugly slut! Go to hell dude!. U've made yr bed, now lie in it THEN!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Gotta keep it down hubby lay your back on the line
Cause I don't care about the money, don't be wasting my time
You need less speed, get off my case
You gotta slow it down hubby, just get out of my face
Cause I don't care about the money, don't be wasting my time
You need less speed, get off my case
You gotta slow it down hubby, just get out of my face
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
This reminds when I was in matriculation years. To that someone, I miss you but I cant love you as before. Have a great days forward. I love you, and I believe that I'll never find someone such you.
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I am so into this song tonight. It means something to me. If you had someone that you had taken his horrible past yet is so not grateful, what would the best thing to do? Already list into mt 'to do' list to have a separate life than current, yet it takes time. What is the best way with immediate effect?
Title: Michelle Branch - All You Wanted lyrics
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Dear Diary,
I had just woke up from a bad dream, really bad one. I know it is happening in my not-so-cool-reality, it just that it is hidden from me. I know it is happening, it just that I have neither strong evidence and fact to make it a justification.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Good day continues. Night time, having Char Koey Tiaw and 3-layer-tea at Taman Tun with the love one, of course. Almighty, do slow down the Monday's coming, please.
Weekend bliss is for everyone. As also for my almost 3-year-old Golden Retriever, he gets English Breakfast set for today's meal.
All week long of having tired and stressed work has ended. It is now week-END. What makes this week is valuable is that I am not alone to feel have this relief. Now that both of us are working, the only time to have Quality Time spent is during weekend.
Weekends are much more to be appreciate like never before, and I meant it. Do not disturb/interrupt my and our weekend, hence, please!
It starts nicely, and hopefully always does. Having breakfast at McDonald together on Saturday morning feels like you-bumswithyour-ex-shcoolmate-that-was-had-a-crush-on-you-that-now-turns-into-a-millionaire! Really, no rush, no traffic, it is full of peace of mind.. Uhhh, I wish that everyday is a weekend.
( Saturday's Beautiful Morning, Damansara. )
@ LDP, 630 in the morning.
It's my love's first day of work. Since that office of his and mine are counter to each other, we need to move early in the morning (avoiding the traffic chaos, of course!). Good luck anyway to you my dear for yr career.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
I had cramped wt the fx in Excel! Luckily that there is a collegue, Hamdan, of mine assist me on this.
Should you need to drag a cell with let see want to maintain the 1 set, but move in sequence another 1 set, here is how it goes.
Usually, should you drag a fx of '=VLOOKUP(L205,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)' down, the result is like below.
=VLOOKUP(L205,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L206,AZ6:BA7,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L207,AZ7:BA8,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L208,AZ8:BA9,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L209,AZ9:BA10,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L2010,A105:BA11,2,TRUE)
Luckily, it can be like this, if you need to.
=VLOOKUP(L205,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L206,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L207,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L208,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L209,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L2010,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
Bear in mind that only 'L' is moving in sequence, while others remain in the same.
How?
highligh the area that you want to remain (for instance above you need to highligh AZ5:BA6), and press F4 button. Then you can drag down the cell to get result as below.
=VLOOKUP(L205,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L206,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L207,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L208,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L209,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
=VLOOKUP(L2010,AZ5:BA6,2,TRUE)
Thursday, February 24, 2011
It was a wonderful eve! For the first time of the 6 and 1/2 years, I get a rose from him. Thanks dear. Honestly, I love it, and I love you.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
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Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentine's meant for everyone, no matter what statuses are you!
Steps To Get A Valentine!
1. Start up a conversation with someone you like.
2. Make sure the person you have your eye on does not have a Valentine!
3. Make sure they would be willing to have a Valentine.
4. Make sure they will be able to go on a date.
5. Enjoy it! Valentine's day is meant to be for you to enjoy!
6. Whatever you do, make sure you don't ditch them if they accept to be your Valentine.
Disclaimer: They may say no. This is not guaranteed to work, it does for many, but follow your gut instinct. If they refuse to talk to you or obviously hate you then don't ask them out.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Dear Valentine & Cupid,
It is neither my heart nor soul had put me into this kind of place. It is totally ain't me!. Broken heart is meant to be healed, but it is not easy to heal one as it involved with lots of promises, commitment, and as well as the changes.
For the changes that I have made, that I have acted, that I have felt, were totally because of you. I expressed my feeling and dissatisfaction towards you. What has been changed? Nothing! Nothing has been changed to get me healed.
It was until this stage and level that I felt we are better to be alone anyway. We are, perhaps. Both parties might not find this is the best solution to overcome on this dissatisfaction, but this might get it resolved temporarily.
To that someone, thanks, for this broken heart that you have invented.
You'd put me in pain because of them.
Friday, February 11, 2011
I'm sick of this life;
I'm sick of this work;
I'm sick of this love.
But the most important is, I sick of you.
I'm sick of this work;
I'm sick of this love.
But the most important is, I sick of you.
I'm sick of this life;
I'm sick of this work;
I'm sick of this love.
But the most important is, I sick of you.
I'm sick of this work;
I'm sick of this love.
But the most important is, I sick of you.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Well, if you ever encounter wrongly sent the email, here is the link that guide you step by step to recall the email. Good Luck.
http://www.addictivetips.com/windows-tips/outlook-2010-recall-a-sent-email-message/
http://www.addictivetips.com/windows-tips/outlook-2010-recall-a-sent-email-message/
Thursday, February 3, 2011
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Semuanyta telah terungkap pada Selasa lalu. Lega rasanya dah dapat meluahkan segalanya, segalanya yang telah aku pendam selama ini. Harap ianya memahami dan melepaskan aku dari kepongpong kesedihan ini,
Kepada seseorang tersebut, maafkan diri aku kerana semuanya telah terlewat. Tak mungkin ku dapat menerima apa jua alasan yg kau beri. Kita pernah bersama, kita masih bersama, kita tak akan bersama lagi selepas ini. Bukan niatku untuk meminta perpisahan, cuma keputusan ini adalah lantara sikap ketelanjuran dirimu.
Biarlah kita berjauhan, itu yang lebih baik untuk diriku, dan dirimu yang suka membuat apa sahaja keputusan.
It was funny to see some man are over-desperate for another men. It was not pertaining the gay thingie, yet it regards the self-value and pride. It was, too, need a man. Having these difficult days and years that leads to the miserably and dullness of life makes me realize that some man are worth it, yet some are not!
What is the point of having a man when deeps in his heart, love that he gives are fake? Imagine this, the same words, the same promises that he used to wish you, were used to be to someone's else.
Undeniable, I need and love him. Well, I am not that much desperate to the stage forcing someone else to admit that he's mine. Dehh~ What a Phetathic!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I am just a 1989 Proton Saga and he is a brand new 2010 Toyota Camry. That is the difference between me & him at his eyes. To that Camry, good luck for you then. Time shall fade you aways, that is for definite. To the person that treats the difference, regardless you aware or not, thanks, this is what I got after all.
Broken hearted.
Dikala dikau mencari cinta
Aku memberi tetapi beku kurasakan
Dikala aku dilamun cinta dengan dirimu
Mengapa kau jauh dariku.
Tiada cinta di dalam dirimu
Biarpun kau kata cinta padaku
Tidak kau rasa getaran ini
Tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menanti cinta ini
Kerna kau masih tak mengerti hati ku
Tak perlu ku ucap
Baby I love you so
Kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menahan perasaan
Tak sanggup kau bermain difikiranku
Tak perlu ku ucap apa diimpikan
Jadikan pengalaman cinta
Kita berdua
Setelah semuanya berlalu hatiku sepi
Tertusuklah cinta ku ini
Jikalau kau pergi dariku
Aku bersendiri
Mengapa kau begitu
Aku memberi tetapi beku kurasakan
Dikala aku dilamun cinta dengan dirimu
Mengapa kau jauh dariku.
Tiada cinta di dalam dirimu
Biarpun kau kata cinta padaku
Tidak kau rasa getaran ini
Tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menanti cinta ini
Kerna kau masih tak mengerti hati ku
Tak perlu ku ucap
Baby I love you so
Kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menahan perasaan
Tak sanggup kau bermain difikiranku
Tak perlu ku ucap apa diimpikan
Jadikan pengalaman cinta
Kita berdua
Setelah semuanya berlalu hatiku sepi
Tertusuklah cinta ku ini
Jikalau kau pergi dariku
Aku bersendiri
Mengapa kau begitu
2:10 PM 1/25/2011
What left is left? As these years of love kept on fading away. The
only last person that I wish that I can lean my shoulder turns to be the
stranger of my life. It was definitely differ neither from what I knew during the initial years of love nor the person that I dream of.
Is this what love means? Is this what loves defines? Is this what love does? Is this how love goes? Well, if yes, then I need to walk away from now on as these were all a nightmare for me.
Stop pretending, stop hurting. Live as what you are, then you shall be bliss by the life anyway. I am tired of being the doormat, being pretended as I was not there, as I was a puppet. Honestly, it hurts, badly!, to be who I am now, but it is even hurt to watch him pretended.
With Love-that-has-been-hurt!,
Ebby
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I am tired wt the term of relationship. It's all sucks. It should be heaven-like for the most person in the world, but not for me, not for the time being, not for the past, not for the next moment after this.
What was the point of having someone to love and to be loved, to care and to be cared, when at the end you know that you shall been hurt.
Great! Now there are another reason for me to hate the word 'Love' , the clause 'I Love You' and 'I Miss You' and never-end-promises-statement 'I'm Sorry, It Won't Happen Again. These Were All Unfortunate Mistakes, I'll Change!'. Word-Clause-Statement that totally ruin out my world, my pethatic world.
Get lost, loooossseerr. Yes, I mean it, get lost! Outta my life, please. You have been the Humpty Dumpty for the past years, there is no reason to get it denied. Do self-admit it, dude.
There is no one lived in the world like or did not care of being betrayed, being lied, being hurt, being fooled, being fakely-loved.
I-L-o-v-e-Y-o-u! But this is too much to accepted and not worth it for what have I done. I ain't your doormat.
Regards; Your doormat-NOW-your-ex-doormat!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Tidak kau terasa
Beban yang aku pikul
Menyeksa jiwaku kekasih
Kenapa kau tak pernah merasakan
Dan jika kau kekasih
Yang menyayangi aku
Harus kau mengerti hatiku
Itu hanya apa yang ku impikan
Bilakah kau akan mengerti
Kata hati
Merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu
Tapiku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih harus ku alami
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggup ku harungi hidup
Bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai
Jika kau kekasih
Semaikanlah hidupku
Jangan biar aku begini
Hidupku dalam kerunsigan kasih
Bilakah kau akan mengerti…
Bukan hati tak tahu,
Bukan hati tak sedih,
Bukan hati tak pedih,
Bukan akal tak memikirkan,
Bukan akal tak mengerti,
Bukan jasad tak terseksa,
Bukan jasad mahu menerima,
Bukan jiwa enggan memahami,
Bukan jiwa tak sayang kenangan bersama,
Bukan jiwa tak mahu bersama lagi,
TETAPI, aku sudah terlalu terluka akan layanan & keadaanmu sekarang.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
http://www.videojug.com/film/how-to-use-a-pivot-table-in-excel (Easy step by step)
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
It was so touched with the commitment shown by my staff today. Some of them had even stayed up thought it was almost midnight. Well, thanks y'all.
Cinta, mmg melekakan.
Cinta, mmg menyakitkan.
Cinta, membuat kita pergi jauh.. shgga pd suatu ketika kita tersedar yg ianya tidak kemana2, walaupn selangkah pn....
Cinta..berlalu...
Monday, January 10, 2011
It was not that hard after all! Try to use these links. Good Luck & Have Fun.
http://www.videojug.com/film/how-to-use-vlookup (Easy Video Guide)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=981MeKFA4W8 (Include TRIM, VALUE & MATCH Fx)
Saturday, January 8, 2011
There is no need to rush on getting to know what lies beneath something. Time, somehow, shall reveal what was the truth. It shall explain what was the doubt upon times ago. Regardless what level of perfection of the lies, it shall, by time, revealed.
One day, I shall have peace-of-mind as such this pic.
*One day, the day that I decided to leave everything behind.
**One day, the day that I know that I have nothing to think about.
***One day, the day that I know that I wouldn't need him since the day 1 that I want to turns back the time to stop the past of me from trust any of the promises by any men.
****One day, the day that I have the courage & spirit!
If only life is as simple as we may click the undo button once we had screwed it. Well, these are the things that I want to get to back to the past, to makes things right (So that in present things shall go my way), if only I had the chances!
1. WORK - Appx. 2 weeks' back.
2. CAREER - Appx. 1 year & 6 months' back.
3. LOVE - Appx. 2 years & 1 month's back.
4. STUDY - Appx. 7 years' back.
5. PARTNERSHIP - Appx. 6 years' back.
6. FINANCES - Appx. 3 years' back.
8. FRIENDSHIP - Appx. 7 years' back.
9. REVENGE - Appx. 2 years & 1 month's back.
10. VACATION - Appx. 5 years & 4 months' back.
11. LIES - Appx. 9 years' back.
12. LOSING THE PERSON YOU LOVE THE MOST - Appx. 2 years & 1 month's back.
13. BEING SOMEBODY ELSE THAN ME - Appx. all the time. :)