Broken hearted.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I am just a 1989 Proton Saga and he is a brand new 2010 Toyota Camry. That is the difference between me & him at his eyes. To that Camry, good luck for you then. Time shall fade you aways, that is for definite. To the person that treats the difference, regardless you aware or not, thanks, this is what I got after all.
posted by De Carelove at 10:48 PM
Dikala dikau mencari cinta
Aku memberi tetapi beku kurasakan
Dikala aku dilamun cinta dengan dirimu
Mengapa kau jauh dariku.
Tiada cinta di dalam dirimu
Biarpun kau kata cinta padaku
Tidak kau rasa getaran ini
Tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menanti cinta ini
Kerna kau masih tak mengerti hati ku
Tak perlu ku ucap
Baby I love you so
Kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menahan perasaan
Tak sanggup kau bermain difikiranku
Tak perlu ku ucap apa diimpikan
Jadikan pengalaman cinta
Kita berdua
Setelah semuanya berlalu hatiku sepi
Tertusuklah cinta ku ini
Jikalau kau pergi dariku
Aku bersendiri
Mengapa kau begitu
Aku memberi tetapi beku kurasakan
Dikala aku dilamun cinta dengan dirimu
Mengapa kau jauh dariku.
Tiada cinta di dalam dirimu
Biarpun kau kata cinta padaku
Tidak kau rasa getaran ini
Tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menanti cinta ini
Kerna kau masih tak mengerti hati ku
Tak perlu ku ucap
Baby I love you so
Kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku
Haruskah aku menahan perasaan
Tak sanggup kau bermain difikiranku
Tak perlu ku ucap apa diimpikan
Jadikan pengalaman cinta
Kita berdua
Setelah semuanya berlalu hatiku sepi
Tertusuklah cinta ku ini
Jikalau kau pergi dariku
Aku bersendiri
Mengapa kau begitu
2:10 PM 1/25/2011
What left is left? As these years of love kept on fading away. The
only last person that I wish that I can lean my shoulder turns to be the
stranger of my life. It was definitely differ neither from what I knew during the initial years of love nor the person that I dream of.
Is this what love means? Is this what loves defines? Is this what love does? Is this how love goes? Well, if yes, then I need to walk away from now on as these were all a nightmare for me.
Stop pretending, stop hurting. Live as what you are, then you shall be bliss by the life anyway. I am tired of being the doormat, being pretended as I was not there, as I was a puppet. Honestly, it hurts, badly!, to be who I am now, but it is even hurt to watch him pretended.
With Love-that-has-been-hurt!,
Ebby
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I am tired wt the term of relationship. It's all sucks. It should be heaven-like for the most person in the world, but not for me, not for the time being, not for the past, not for the next moment after this.
What was the point of having someone to love and to be loved, to care and to be cared, when at the end you know that you shall been hurt.
Great! Now there are another reason for me to hate the word 'Love' , the clause 'I Love You' and 'I Miss You' and never-end-promises-statement 'I'm Sorry, It Won't Happen Again. These Were All Unfortunate Mistakes, I'll Change!'. Word-Clause-Statement that totally ruin out my world, my pethatic world.
Get lost, loooossseerr. Yes, I mean it, get lost! Outta my life, please. You have been the Humpty Dumpty for the past years, there is no reason to get it denied. Do self-admit it, dude.
There is no one lived in the world like or did not care of being betrayed, being lied, being hurt, being fooled, being fakely-loved.
I-L-o-v-e-Y-o-u! But this is too much to accepted and not worth it for what have I done. I ain't your doormat.
Regards; Your doormat-NOW-your-ex-doormat!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Tidak kau terasa
Beban yang aku pikul
Menyeksa jiwaku kekasih
Kenapa kau tak pernah merasakan
Dan jika kau kekasih
Yang menyayangi aku
Harus kau mengerti hatiku
Itu hanya apa yang ku impikan
Bilakah kau akan mengerti
Kata hati
Merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu
Tapiku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih harus ku alami
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggup ku harungi hidup
Bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai
Jika kau kekasih
Semaikanlah hidupku
Jangan biar aku begini
Hidupku dalam kerunsigan kasih
Bilakah kau akan mengerti…
Bukan hati tak tahu,
Bukan hati tak sedih,
Bukan hati tak pedih,
Bukan akal tak memikirkan,
Bukan akal tak mengerti,
Bukan jasad tak terseksa,
Bukan jasad mahu menerima,
Bukan jiwa enggan memahami,
Bukan jiwa tak sayang kenangan bersama,
Bukan jiwa tak mahu bersama lagi,
TETAPI, aku sudah terlalu terluka akan layanan & keadaanmu sekarang.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
http://www.videojug.com/film/how-to-use-a-pivot-table-in-excel (Easy step by step)
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
It was so touched with the commitment shown by my staff today. Some of them had even stayed up thought it was almost midnight. Well, thanks y'all.
Cinta, mmg melekakan.
Cinta, mmg menyakitkan.
Cinta, membuat kita pergi jauh.. shgga pd suatu ketika kita tersedar yg ianya tidak kemana2, walaupn selangkah pn....
Cinta..berlalu...
Monday, January 10, 2011
It was not that hard after all! Try to use these links. Good Luck & Have Fun.
http://www.videojug.com/film/how-to-use-vlookup (Easy Video Guide)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=981MeKFA4W8 (Include TRIM, VALUE & MATCH Fx)
Saturday, January 8, 2011
There is no need to rush on getting to know what lies beneath something. Time, somehow, shall reveal what was the truth. It shall explain what was the doubt upon times ago. Regardless what level of perfection of the lies, it shall, by time, revealed.
One day, I shall have peace-of-mind as such this pic.
*One day, the day that I decided to leave everything behind.
**One day, the day that I know that I have nothing to think about.
***One day, the day that I know that I wouldn't need him since the day 1 that I want to turns back the time to stop the past of me from trust any of the promises by any men.
****One day, the day that I have the courage & spirit!
If only life is as simple as we may click the undo button once we had screwed it. Well, these are the things that I want to get to back to the past, to makes things right (So that in present things shall go my way), if only I had the chances!
1. WORK - Appx. 2 weeks' back.
2. CAREER - Appx. 1 year & 6 months' back.
3. LOVE - Appx. 2 years & 1 month's back.
4. STUDY - Appx. 7 years' back.
5. PARTNERSHIP - Appx. 6 years' back.
6. FINANCES - Appx. 3 years' back.
8. FRIENDSHIP - Appx. 7 years' back.
9. REVENGE - Appx. 2 years & 1 month's back.
10. VACATION - Appx. 5 years & 4 months' back.
11. LIES - Appx. 9 years' back.
12. LOSING THE PERSON YOU LOVE THE MOST - Appx. 2 years & 1 month's back.
13. BEING SOMEBODY ELSE THAN ME - Appx. all the time. :)